I didn't realise how momentous 2016 was until yesterday, when I was filing away Christmas cards and re-read this postcard from a good friend.
|Stamped 24 Nov 2015, San Francisco|
Do you remember last summer when there was a heat wave that rendered many sleepless nights for many in Auckland? Either spend the night in feverish heat or open the windows and be a feast for mosquitoes. Your mind does well to forget painful memories but I remember clearly the night I was in utter state of discomfort in my parents' room, too hot to sleep, too tired to eat.
I got the postcard that night. That was a surprise, I thought I was the only one who appreciated the novelty of snail mail, but I hadn't sent any that year so I was a little puzzled; who do I know in California? Turns out the friend who was in San Francisco wrote to me, and the last sentence on the back of that postcard was "praying that God has good plans for you and that you'll make it out here some other time".
Neither he nor I could predict that that would come true so soon. How amazing that I was strong enough to cycle across the Golden Gate Bridge later on that year, my willpower making up for the lack of muscles. I could not have imagined spending my 24th birthday marvelling at the architecture of Frank Gehry's Walt Disney Concert Hall, drifting to sleep to Stravinsky. I saw Pollock, Monet, Rauschenberg, Hopper, Rothko in real life, real size and was moved to tears at the beauty of color and composition, knowing how much some of them have fought to be included in a gallery. I got to see my American auntie for the 2nd time that year, this time my cousin whom I haven't seen in 5 years came to meet me too.
|My cousin, me and my auntie. SFO|
I have plans for 2017, but then so did I in 2015 which quickly came undone like ribbons on ballerina's shoes. But you have to keep dancing on stage.
Are my plans God's plans for me too? I can only know if stay sensitive and open minded to changes. I know that whatever plan He has for me, whether they are the same with mine or not, are good. They are good and they are not worth going against.
Whoever you are, I pray that God's plans for you are good too. And if you ever forget it and are tossing and turning in the middle of your own unbearable heat wave, I'll send you a postcard to remind you.